words for the signs

babyhelios:

check sun & moon 

aries: if passion is gasoline i poured and poured and poured & it took one careless match to burn it all away. i was alive and now i have, am, nothing & i am alone in coming to terms with that.

taurus: all that i ever wanted was security & nothing i did was enough to make me feel stable. i let my house turn to ruin trying to keep it from changing, but it continued to decay & rot & my control vanished.

gemini: it might have been my fault for seeing everything as a competition & it was definitely my fault that i tried so hard to win. my cutthroat manner left the breeze trembling & instead of burning all my bridges shattered.

cancer: stay, i told them. each & every one of them i told and my expectations turned to grief turned to despair until my loss was a tidal wave that consumed me. my heart shuddered & cried & suffocated.

leo: you tell me what i need is attention. you do not know how i can crave and loathe something at once. it is like a volcano, rock & lava, both melting and boiling and destructive. you do not understand that the eruption hurts only me.

virgo: maybe if i had bent to your will you would have stayed, but you have not seen iron like me. your skin is made of porcelain, & i am sorry that my harsh words break you. but better your skin to be broken than your heart.

libra: the disenchantment of my good nature is a fortress nobody can penetrate. i please the masses & watch them knock, once, twice, three times and leave me alone. i painted such a pretty face on the walls, & people only ever want my smiles.

scorpio: snake, they call me. scorpion. as though my purpose is so sting, to bite, to poison. they do not realize i do not attack unprovoked. that my distance & my isolation is not to hurt them, but to protect me. 

sagittarius: if there was somebody who could keep up with me, for once i might stay. but they never can, and never do, and i can’t be blamed for leaving. campfires don’t burn for long, no matter how fond of them you are. you move on & start another burning elsewhere.

capricorn: mountains cannot be moved and the same can be said for me. i am a constant, reliable, certain in my solitude. someone asks me why i am so serious & i answer because somebody has to be.

aquarius: all i want is understanding, but i know better than to expect something so rare. i’ve been told nobod will understand if i don’t try to express myself honestly, but i’m too scared to face my real feelings.

pisces: dreaming is inescapable & it makes you too happy. it is a fishbowl, you see out and people are distorted to your perspective & you think that is normal. you get surprised when someone yanks you out of the water & they are not who they thought you were. wake up.